The Cost of Being a Disciple

do I need to do and he said something like he asked himself at the end of the year what did it cost him being a Christian that year and if the answer is nothing then he wasn't experiencing it fully because it's when we count the cost with Jesus having that we really get to know him. It was that line that really spoke to me because I probably would have called myself a Christian when it was convenient but couldn't think of a single time I'd counted the cost or sacked first, maybe that's why it's never clicked for me, I've just had it as this little add-on when actually it needs to be I want the real deal, I want it in its full